Kimberleh

I can’t believe I watched a movie by myself today. I never thought that I could do that. Hmmm…maybe it will depend on the movie. I watched "Stardust" by the way. MG and I planned to watch it but her US opportunity happened in an instant so we couldn’t afford any longer. Years ago, my cousin, Summer has been recommending the novel by Neil Gaiman. I just borrowed it recently because I wanted to read the book first before I watch the movie. But until now, I haven’t started page one..Hehehe! Anyway, I promise to read the book after seeing the movie. But I think it was a good thing to see the movie first. I was really surprised and amazed with the story and its effects. Astig, I swear! No regrets watching it alone. Anyway, you don’t talk when you watch inside the theatre, would you? You will get to realize that you were alone once you get out of the movie house. You just have to make sure that you are not surrounded by kissing and cuddling couples though. Oh well… =p I wanted to watch it on my birthday alone while waiting for Summer in Trinoma. It was a Monday and I was on birthday leave then. She has work until 5pm. But she told me that I should watch it with somebody. So I can have someone to "giggle" with siguro..Hehe! Me and Jaren even attempted to watch it when we were in Cebu. Me and Dawn were supposed to watch it din sana from our Cebu-Bohol trip. But I was frustrated when Dawn said it’s no longer showing. I checked clickthecity.com yesterday and there are still few cinemas running it (few as in one cinema per mall lang)—to name the few, there’s gateway, trinoma, robinson’s galleria, megamall, eastwood, greenhills, powerplant and other sm provincial malls; it’s no longer showing in glorietta and greenbelt. I checked again today and the list was shorter. I panicked. The movie has been showing 1st week of October pa ata. I really wanted to see the movie in theatre so it will be more thrilling. I decided to work undertime (I filed it as halfday leave given that I still have more than 10 VL’s to consume until November 16..) The movie will start at 4:55 PM. I left the office around 3:30 PM for Ortigas. I’m just proud of myself. I proved that I can do things by myself, that I can do things which I didn’t thought I could, that I can do things I really want and that I don’t feel ashamed that I’m alone. I can be happy even with me, myself and I alone. If you’re sad, depressed or miss someone, you can always get your own comfort within yourself. Another great thing that happened to me today is that I bought “The Rugrats Movie” DVD!!! My cousins and I watched Rugrats in 1998 and since then we always look for VHS, VCD or DVD copy but we were always unlucky. I always thought that it will never be distributed in the Philippines and thus, we will never see the movie again. As I was too early for the movie, I went to Astroplus to kill the time. The DVD flashed to my eyes as I about to leave the store! I didn’t have second thoughts on buying it. I just made sure that the DVD is not “Rugrats in Paris” as the latter is more available than the first instalment. This movie is really memorable to us cousins. Funny kasi we confessed to ourselves that we cried during the movie when we were already home and we were hiding our tears from each other. We were shy about it kasi nga naman it was just cartoons. Lesson learned: never say never (I can’t think of a title for this entry..haha!). As I thought I would never watch a movie by myself. We will never know that we will later eat our words.

From the movie "Josie and The Pussycats"

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
‘Cause I’m getting tired of pretending I’m tough
I’m here if you want me
I’m yours you can hold me
I’m empty and aching
And tumbling and breaking

*Chorus*
‘Cause you don’t see me
And you don’t need me
And you don’t love me

The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
When I dream a million sleepless nights
Well I dream of fire when you’re touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
As patchless and faded
It’s too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends?

*Chorus*

The way I wish you would
The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I’m falling apart
Isn’t this just where we met?
Is this the last chance I’ll ever get?
I wish I was lonely instead of just only
Crystal and see through
And not enough to you

*Chorus*

The way I wish you would
The way I know you could 

(Special thanks to Jaren for introducing me to this song..)

I can very much relate to this song by Fergie…I think it was written for me. Hehehe!

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VERSE 1
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You’re probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
Be with myself in center, clarity
Peace, serenity

CHORUS
I hope you know
I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal
Myself and I
We got some straightening out to do
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
It’s time to be a big girl now
Big girls don’t cry
Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry

VERSE 2
The path that I’m walkin, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps ’til I’m full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don’t always have a happy ending do they?
And I forsee the dark ahead if I stay

CHORUS
I hope you know
I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal
Myself and I

We got some straightening out to do
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
It’s time to be a big girl now
Big girls don’t cry

BRIDGE
Like a little school mate in a school yard,
We’ll play jacks and Uno cards
I’ll be your best friend
And you’ll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
Cuz I wanna hold yours too
We’ll be playmates and lovers and share our secret world
But it’s time for me to go home
It’s getting late dark outside
I need to be with myself in center,
Clarity, peace, serenity

CHORUS
I hope you know
I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal
Myself and I
We got some straightening out to do
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
It’s time to be a big girl now
Big girls don’t cry
Don’t cry, don’t cry don’t cry 

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Check out its music video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZnWxzFMCHg

…On my way home on a bus tonight, the radio played "Is It Okay If I Call You Mine?" by Paul McCrane, a favorite song of the person who was, still is, special to me. I find myself wiping my tears. But I regained my composure soonest possible. Duh! I was not yet in my room/bed to cover up those tears on my pillow. Actually, I can’t remember when was the last time I cried over this person until tonight. Though I think of him million times everyday.. I even THINK that I’m no longer the cry baby I used to be. Feeling ko manhid na nga ako eh and that I’m stronger now.

I ask myself a lot and even God, why do I have to go through this? Why did this person hurt me? He even said things and made me believe them. Promises should have been left unsaid. I wonder now, if he really meant it. Did he see it coming but still pursue me? Whatever his reason is..I find one song to answer my questions..

I THINK GOD CAN EXPLAIN
By: Splender

There’s a lot of things I understand
And there’s a lot of things that
I don’t want to know
But you’re the only face I recognize
It’s so damn sweet of you
to look me in the eyes

Chorus:
It’s alright, I’m O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I’m the same
I get caried away
It’s alright, I’m O.K.
I think God can explain
I’m relieved I’m relaxed
I’ll get over it yet

The sent of vasoline
in the summertime
The feel of an icecube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small
when I begin to cry

Repeat Chorus

I’m so much better than you guessed
I’m so much bigger than you guessed
I’m so much brighter than you guessed

Repeat Chorus

I think God can explain
I think God can explain
I think God can explain